Care for me?

Everything just went down to the drain now. I hate this feeling. I hate this uneasy feeling. I hate this feeling of left out. I hate this feeling of being very sensitive.
I care about all of you. To be there when you guys need my support and just said, "i'm not gonna be there when you present" if its my turn to present. It's freaking big thing in my life and ktkrang just sik duli? Ya jak? Cmya treat aku? being caring is hard. Not only to the opposite sex, but to same sex where expected to be caring and more empathic. I don't know what to trust and care. :(